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So what's bothering you ? There's some

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things going wrong but I'm not looking

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for sympathy . I wanna be real about

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what's been plaguing my community .

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We've been dealing with a pandemic of

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mental instability . No puns intended ,

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but it's literally killing me trying to

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be superman . But I don't recognize

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these identities . I can't stand to be

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around anyone bending to my knee is my

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only ability . It's been buzzing for

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light years and going on for infinity .

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But when you add them toys , story

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changes when you're extracting

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extremities . And I know I'm on the

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right path because it's all crickets

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like jiminy , I'm not concrete but I've

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been smoking like chimneys . I drink so

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much because my life feels hollow .

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Maybe that's why I stay consumed by the

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void in that bottle . And I know my

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mind could be my own worst enemy when I

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try to fight . I just don't have the

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energy . A ticking time bomb of emotion

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will I explode ? It's iffy . I don't

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like showing vulnerability . So I keep

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it wrapped up within me . My life .

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Somewhat shaky . I'm looking for a

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balance being . I know it affects us .

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All those living in poverty to the ones

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rich with amenities . But , uh , but

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for so long , I've been grin to these

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problems and pain . No window . I heard

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that life is a game still is no

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Nintendo hot with cold sweats . I wake

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up in spin mode and I can't seem to

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pull myself up off that rabbit hole

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neck deep in the crisis . Too

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embarrassed to reach that 988 lifeline

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or call 1 802 738255 . And I

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don't know if this message could be any

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clearer . I just wish I could say it to

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somebody besides the man in this mirror .